No cramps, spotting, pains or aches of any sort. Nada.
I don't think that's a good sign.
And I realized that I can't even act out my fantasy of not testing and waiting for my body to let me know what's going on (because in that fantasy I either a. get a quasi-normal period b. get to wake up one morning 3-4+ weeks post ovulation and think 'oh my! maybe i'm pg!') because ... I need to start bcps for the next cycle. So there we have it - I'm trying to focus my thoughts on that cycle, and our possible IVF in July.
It was good to get this far but I just don't think I can invest much energy in daydreaming about this cycle.
And tonight, without even thinking, I made plans to rent an apartment next fall that I absolutely could not live in with a baby. I guess if we get to that point it'll be another round of IVF in late spring 2009.
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It all sounds so familiar.
Oh, the fantasy of just "realizing" you could be pg.
And the plans for the future...
Like my hubby buying a pickup truck and asking, "Well can't you fit a baby seat right here?"
How frustrating!
Well, if you decide to do an IVF cycle in July, we can worry and obsess together. :)
We have the same name and our birthdays are only a day apart. Cool. I am a little jealous, though, that you're in a cool European city and I'm in Themiddleofnowhere.
I know it's easier said than done, but I think you should try to relax as much as possible because you really never know. If the answer truly is no this time, at least you have a plan. I have found having a plan to be a wonderful way to focus forward. In this IF roller coaster, that's imperative.
oh yes, that fantasy. I have had it more times than I can count.
xoxoxoxox
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