Grumpy and nervous (with update)

and I just caved and called the Ob/Gyn's office to see if I can go in tomorrow. Waiting to see if they'll even get back to me before 5 pm.

I know mood swings are normal, as is being hormonal. But I have just been plain ol' grumpy all week. For basically no reason. To give you a little example, JD called today to see if I wanted to go out to lunch with him or if he should come home to lunch. I snapped at him that I didn't want to always make the decisions, and I didn't have time to talk to him. And then I hung up on him. Does that sound nice?

The little things which are worrying/annoying me.

A. The worry: The back pain has not gone away. It is mostly low-grade lower back pain, which I suppose is normal. Except that by the end of the day it sometimes switches into shooting back pain which is sharp enough to make me nauseous.

B. I'm not gaining weight. And moreover, I'm not hungry. And when I do get hungry I tend to become overwhelmed with the guilt of having to find something super-healthy and decide not to eat at all rather than eat something only mildly-healthy. There is so much guilt. A new study that indicates obesity is heavily influenced by excessive fat consumption during pregnancy. And of course, all the risks associated with GD. But I'm far more worried about not being hungry or gaining weight. I'm below my IF treatment weight and haven't gained weight since week 6 or 8 at the latest, but my total gain thus far is probably reasonable (This worry is of course probably idiotic. I have after all asked my midwife, ob/gyn and G.I. specialist about this and nobody seemed at all worried).

C. Just annoying: I've outgrown my bras. And some idiotic doctor (I have far more choice words for this individual if I could find out who is responsible) has decided that neither pregnant nor breastfeeding women should wear underwires because of the risk of mastitis. I'm now a Size H and I can't imagine what the point of a non-underwire bra is. My breasts rest quite nicely on the bump at this point, and a bra without an underwire adds no extra support and usually gives me a noticeable uni-boob, making it impossible to fit into any type of non-potato sack dress. Every woman in my family is this size and every woman breastfed while wearing underwire bras. So I have 2 options at this point:
- Skip the bra entirely, deal with the stretch marks and aches and endless oogling in public
- Wear a bra that is too small and deal with a row of blisters up the sides of the bra under my armpits. Slightly less oogling, not at all helped by the fact that every maternity shirt out there seems to be a low-cut v-neck. I don't get it.
I have been alternating, which gives me both side effects. Any suggestions on size H underwire bras would be much appreciated.

Sorry that I'm so grumpy recently. I'm really hoping it's nothing and I'll feel better tomorrow, but this is day 3 of feeling angry and bitter and moody for no reason.

Update: Appointment at 1:45 tomorrow. Which hopefully will make me feel better, but is clearly freaking me out at the moment. Since when do headaches and nausea and back pain during pregnancy equal an emergency situation that gets you triple-booked at the ob/gyn?